
This Saturday is the Rock ‘N’ Roll Marathon. It is also my baby shower.
Before I got pregnant, it was my plan to train for and run the 1/2 Marathon again. I wanted to conquer the feat for a second time and back in December had even written out my entire six-month training schedule. But with life taking me in a much different direction just after New Year’s, I had long since forgotten about training, let alone race day, until I was at Apple yesterday working to fix syncing issues I’ve had with my calendar. All of a sudden, there it was on the screen, glaring at me like an old friend whose birthday party I had forgotten to go to.
Before that there was a walk through downtown Chelan where I caught my reflection in a shop window. I hardly recognized the person looking back at me, with her bulging belly and soft, swollen ankles.
Before that there was pain. Searing pain on the right side of my tummy like that of a stitch you’d get while running (only I was just putting a few things in the car) but multiplied by ten, maybe more. It wasn’t until I slowed waaaaaay down and sipped some water with my feet up that the hernia-like ripping feeling subsided.
And today. Today I sat down to write a fabulous blog post about all the amazing ways I planned to take advantage of the summer…picking berries, outdoor movies, boating. Then I realized those were the only non-baby things on my to-do list. Everything else screamed mommy-to-be. Finish decorating the nursery (orange and grey or yellow and grey?), take our birthing class (and attempt to get gold stars), get in a few parenting reads (Babywise, Bringing up Bebe and French Kids Eat Everything), print pictures for my belly book (who the heck can print 2×3 pics these days?)…
Lately it seems as though I cannot escape the fact that life is about to change in a big, big way. I know I said I wouldn’t turn this into a mommy blog, and I promise I still won’t, but today POSHees, this is what is on my mind. I hope that’s ok.
{Deep breath} I knew this time would come. The time to slow down, reexamine my priorities, and begin to figure out how to go from Lacie ‘POSH’ Powell to Lacie Mama’POSH’ Powell. Do I have to give up the Lacie? Do I have to give up the POSH? The Powell and the Mama part certainly aren’t going anywhere…and truthfully, I wouldn’t have it any other way because just as KP swept me off my feet and made me happier than I ever could’ve dreamed, I know this sweet baby boy will come into my life, turn my heart inside out and bring me more love than I ever thought possible. Does that make this monumental change any easier? Not really. As with many seasons in life, I am re-living the past, thoughtfully considering the future and at times and to my detriment, not spending much time in the present.
Ecclesiastes 3
“…To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven…” (KJV)
“…He has made everything beautiful in its time…” (NIV)
“…So I made up my mind that there’s nothing better for us men and women than to have a good time in whatever we do—that’s our lot…” (The Message)
So here we are sweet friends. A new season of life. I may look like I’m smuggling a basketball and have a to-do list that is 70% baby (for now). I may have to put my feet up now and again instead of blogging about gorgeous Louboutins every single day (for now). And I may only get the runner’s stitch without the running (for now).
Change is hard but I’m confident that at God’s feet and with the support of my beautiful friends and family, I can get through it. And on the other side will be a handsome mini-KP that will make it all SO, SO worth it. My prayer is that this summer I embrace the season and whatever it holds. POSHees, would you be praying for me to? All my love. XX